Encouraged

Have you ever felt so encouraged and motivated, then the next few days, maybe hours, you got very down and constantly saying to ourselves "No use one la..".

Maybe some of you out there hadn't but this feeling.. kept making me saying "No use one la.." once again.

I wonder why we, people on Earth have this thought adjusted to our mind. Regardless what people say to us, whether words of comfort or wake up calls, we still can fall on our knees and shout that favourite "victory" cry.

Truth being said, I've actually encountered a friend in a bus just now. It was pretty late and the bus was pretty full. Seeing him in the bus couldn't withstand the action of opening my jaws and say "Hi!". We had our little conversation difficult as I was standing and him sitting while there's one more person sitting in between. But still, that didn't stopped him from sharing his point of view.

He was telling me about passion. The passion of us doing what we like and kept on going and going as we continue to improve. His was about reading. Through a few examples he gave, I knew from that moment that this guy definitely reads a lot. Unlike me on the other hand, I barely read. Maybe that explains why is my English is, well, weird. I admit it is weird. Only my close friends who understands me can decipher what I'm trying to say. Sometimes they just couldn't because the chances of me being in my own world is ridiculously high. The English dictionary does not contain many words that I would like to describe.

So maybe writing is not my passion. I definitely can get myself improving if I start reading more but I just cannot stand reading. Maybe sitting will do but nah..

But there are others that get me fired up. Earlier this morning, my friends were on stage singing in a choir group. Watching a friend playing his guitar and hearing them singing, got me thinking how I could have improve this performance. I was thinking how a violin play would so much harmonize the song they were performing. But the problem is, I'm not even an amateur to begin with. I just hold a violin and played a few notes and viola~ I call myself a violinist.

I'm learning to accept myself as some sort of a sore loser. Lacking of knowledge and skills, I just can't seem to look at myself, how great I am as according to the Bible or even according to the secular definition.

If only I had some sort of encouragement. If only people don't go against me. Or if only people could have just looked at me.

I've got a friend. He is able to switch his views on himself. He has this ability of thinking "I'm great! I'll win!" and quickly "*sigh* I'm useless." I kinda dislike this feeling especially when the negatives parts he's telling me is false. Sometimes he tells me that no one cares for him. But the truth is, people do care for him and what he needs to see is their inner feelings instead of what they show outside. I mean, the tendency of people make fun of him and tease him is as high as they taking their daily bread. But he cannot seem to see how important is he to others.

Sometimes it goes to me too. I cannot and do not have the ability to look at the bright side and look at what people truly feels. I just can't help feeling that everyone wants to bring me down. Why? Something that I still cannot find the answer.

And therefore, maybe this is the feeling that is stopping us. This feeling that stopped us from continue our dreams and ambition. Stopped us from being hyped up to go on with our lives. We can either stop thinking this way because it's just a mere distraction or pray that we can find support from others. Genuine support.

The Global Warning of Global Warming

Yes... I know it's a pretty old documentary type of movie ( An Inconvenient Truth ) , but just watching a little bit of it makes me wonder , is it really that bad? Will our Earth be affected that much? Sea level rises , Hurricanes , Land Cracking ( Drought ) , Flood... It's ridiculous... How will we survive this catastrophe which is happening and affecting us indirectly?

It's a pretty good example that Al Gore used which is a frog jumping into a pot of hot water , it will quickly hop out once it gets in knowing it's well.. hot. However , if a frog jumped into a water which is in a lukewarm state. It will stay there. But when we turned on the stove , the water's temperature will definitely increase and the frog will take it's sweet time to react since it does not gets hot immediately. When the water turns into a ridiculously hot state , the frog will need to be removed instead.

And with many evidences , researches and speeches about global warming , but yet , why mankind are not putting much effort? Now I'm wondering whether it's true when he said certain people reply with responses like "So?" or "It's a normal cycle. It happened before.". True. People can say that. But if we know the sources are from us... Don't you think we can make a difference? I mean , people are actually preferring the thought of leaving it be when they can actually make something better?

And I know I sound rather hypocritical here , because here am I , watching the school burning leaves and just , watching it. Where I inhale the smokes produced through the burning of the leaves? Why don't I do something instead? But if anyone out there thinking about me as this , don't you think you can do something instead too?

I am not here to comment about this although I do sound like commenting about this.. But I'm actually here to point out what are in the minds of the people this time. I mean , the weather's getting hot... Even at night. But I just can't believe my ears if I've heard someone saying "So what?"